"Run-Way Ready"!

Monya's hair is starting to grow back!

First Chemo infusion!

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First hair cut!

Yesterday Monya and I had the chance to go to lunch together and catch up on our heart to heart visits that we LOVE to have!

When I went to pick her up she walked out of her house and as she approached the car a flood of emotions came to me! She looked beautiful as always but... yesterday for some reason she looked more beautiful than ever to me! Remember I have been friends with Monya for well over twenty years!

she got in the car we just kind of looked at each other and then we became almost "Giddy" as we hugged and laughed together! We were like three year olds so happy to see each other, even though it hand only been a short time since we had seen each other! Monya looked gorgeous! I told her this and she told me "Shut-up", (not the first time she has told me to shut-up) and again I told her the same thing, as we were still laughing like three year old!s I can honestly tell you ,she look like a Europeon movie star / Runway Model!!! I could not take my eyes off of her! I know that sound weird but... I think part of the reason why I could not stop looking at at her was because when you think of someone going through cancer you think of the dark circles around their eyes, they look frail, they just look SICK!! It has amazed me as Monya has fight this battle with such GRACE and FAITH, she has never really looked sick to me even on her worst days! I know this is to much information but... she could go in the bathroom and throw up and walk out and still look "Run Way" ready! Momya finally said to me just "Shut -Up lets go I am starving", and off we went to one of our FAVORITE spots Rumbi Island Grill!

I was blessed to be able to take Monya to all of her chemotherapy appointment and some doctor appointments and a few radiation appointment as well. These were such hard times! There were days where I would get to her house to pick her up for chemo and she would be in tears and would say to me "I AM NOT GOING"! What do you say to that?? It was heart wrenching to see her suffer and yet I would say to her "Yes you have to go, you have NEVER quit anything in your whole life"! But in the back of my mind knowing how sick she already was and to know she was going to get more sick from the chemo, I wanted to say to her "Okay lets not go and lets just go and drive somewhere fun and forget the chemo"! I know this is selfish to say but... it was painful for me to see someone you love so much suffer! And... There was not one thing I could do to help her long suffering! But the warrior she is, she would get in the car and off we would go to the Mayo Clinic for more torture!

We always tried to make the best of it by talking smack about the oncologist P.A. Margo, who we did not like so well only because she would say the same thing every time we went in.... "I can't believe you still have your eyelashes". We would then tell her AGAIN.... that they were eye lash extensions, and again Margo would say "I DON'T WANT YOU TO HAVE THOSE BECAUSE YOU MIGHT GET AN INFECTION"! And the next question from Margo would be, "ARE YOU FLOSSING YOUR TEETH"? As always Monya and I would just look at each other with that look we had that we knew what it meant," REALLY, ARE YOU KIDDING ME SERIOUSLY , if you bring these things up one more time we will hurt you MARGO!!! SHUT-UP"!!!!! Monya and I would also get a laugh from Margo's brown shoes she AlWAYS wore and the same brown "pants suit " that she ALWAYS wore! I am telling you when you are going through chemo you look for any opportunity to laugh! Even if it is at someone else expense!

Over this last year every time I would pick Monya up she was "Run Way" ready! She always had her make-up on, her jewelery and let me reassure you that her hats matched every outfit she ever wore! Not only did the hats match but she would have these beautiful blingy flowers , that she had made for her pinned to her hat to match as well! Again "Run Way Ready"!

I remember the day when we first noticed that she was loosing her hair. It was the third week of chemo! We were driving home from Mayos ,and it had been a long day! Monya ran her hand through her hair and a BIG chunk of hair came out! Monya just looked at me with tears.... but yet she was laughing and said to me, "are you kidding me right now"? I did not know what to say! The only thing I could think to say to her was... "why are you laughing"? Her response was "what do you want me to do"! At that point we both began to cry! I think the loss of her hair was one of the hardest times for her in this last year! But again she has shown such strength and courage!

When a lot of hair started coming out more and more she had her hair cut short! That is a day I will never forget! We went to her hairdressers home to cut it! It was Sonya, Kayla, Haleigh, Jenny and me that took Monya! Her hairdresser just put what hair she had left into a ponytail and then just cut it off! Talk about painful...Monya just wept and before to long we were all were crying! People say "oh it is just hair and it will grow back"! When I hear that I want to say "okay sit down and lets cut all of your hair off and then we can say "oh it is just hair and see how you will feel!

Within a week even though Monya had lost a lot of hair and she cut it short, it was still falling out all over her and would fall in her food. So at that point Sonya took buzzers to her head and buzzed it and just left like a quarter of an inch of hair on her head! Within a short time it too was gone!

But even though Monya was completely bald she still did not look sick! Like I said she wore cute hats and if you were not close to her to see under her hat you would never guess she was sick! Though she was bald when I would pick her up, she was ALWAYS dressed so cute! Her makeup done , cute big jewelry on, hats to match what she was wearing and as always "Run Way Ready"!I do have to say that Monya told me the other day that it was nice not to have to worry about fixing her hair! In fact she did not even have to use shampoo for awhile! Now since it is about an half of an inch long she is back to the shampoo! But not yet back to having to comb or brush it! It was so funny at lunch when she was explaining to me how she combs her hair with her hands! It was so funny how she explained it to me! We both laughed about that!

Through this last year with my "Bon-Bon... she has taught me so much! There have been several times through out this past year where I had to borrow some of her faith, and strength! We have had so many powerful, spiritual talks as we drove to Mayos for treatments and as we would sit all day while she was being infused with these powerful horrible chemicals! We have shared so very much with each other... our testimonies, prayers, laughs, tears, lunches, ups and downs and so much more! As hard as this last year has been for Monya she has continued to show Christ like attributes and has continued to be the best wife, mother, sister, and dearest friend ever! Monya I do have to say though you really made me look bad as I picked you up from your house and you would walk out Looking so BEAUTIFUL and "Run Way Ready"! Monya I hope you know how very proud I am of you for your courage, strength, faith and your fight to get well! But most of all I hope you know how very much I love you always and forever!

Radiation!

Tom Relaxing... Are You Kidding ME!!!!

Walker helping Pops with his new computer!

"CHILLAXING" in his new chair!


















Well we finally found something to help Tom relax!!! No not medication, a new recliner and a laptop!
Fathers Day 2010 was a good day! Tom had meetings starting at 6:00am for his calling as a High Counselor that lasted longer than usual. He then had to go to the ward that he is over witch is the Summerfeild Ward! So sad to say but... Tom and I did not even get to go to church together! Rhett got up early and went to Missionary prep class at 7:00 am and when he got there it was cancelled due to Fathers Day. I am not clear if someone did not call him and let him know it was cancelled or if Rhett was just not listening very well!
But Rhett and I went to our ward and later that afternoon we all met back at home! Walker was home for the weekend from the Academy and all the other kids and their spouse and kids came over as well! Cita and Ralph came as well. The only people that were missing was Posey and Ben and there cute boys! We really wished they could have been here too!
Walker cooked steak, I made corn,Blake and Tanya made cesar salad, Erin and Joe made peach cobbler and brownie and cita made a pound cake and potatoe salad! it was a great meal!!
Pops not only got a lap top and recliner but, he also got a new watch, a Nike backpack, a new money clip, an I-Tune card,, a computer case and some new barbecue tools, and a home depot gift card and a "How To Book"! As we all know he needs that book!
Tom has been such a wonderful dad! All of our kids love Pops so much! All the kids love to get Tom going on some of his OCDs! We all know Tom has some things that can push his buttons and the boys love to push them! Thank goodness Posey gets her dads back! Tom has always put his family before anything in his life! He would and has done so much for his kids! They have never gone without!
Tom knows for sure ALL of his grandchildren are by far the cutest grand kids in the world! They love to come to Pops's house to help feed the horses and to eat Pops famous pancakes! ALL the grand kids think Pops is the funnest Pops in the world! Just a few weeks ago Posey's little boy Vance had to get glasses and he was not happy about it! Vance said his glasses looked dumb and he would not where them! So Tom had me take a picture of him with his glasses on and we sent it Vance! Well Vance loved that and since Pops had glasses Vance said he would where his now and he has!
Tom is always up so early and does his morning rituals! Go feed the horses and clean stalls, comes back showers and gets ready for work! During school wakes Rhett and they get the trashes out and they feed the dogs and what ever other few things that might need to get done!
But what I love the very most about Tom is , EVERY morning before he leaves for work, Tom kneels on my side of the bed and prays with me. He then tells me "I love you and to have a good day"! Gives me a kiss good-bye and he then off to work! He never forgets! It is always the best part of my day!
What more could I ask for in a husband and father! Tom deserves the world! We are so very blessed as a family to have Tom for a husband and father and priesthood leader in our home!!
Tom we love you more than you will ever know! I love you in a powerful eternal way that is hard to describe! I have said this before but I have to say it again....
I am so thankful to be sealed to you for the eternities! I am so thankful you are my "ETERNAL COMPANION" and could not face this life with out you! I LOVE and ADORE you! You will ALWAYS be my ETERNAL PRECIOUS SWEETHEART!!! Happy Fathers Day!
XXOOXXXOOXOX

It Just Can't Be!!!

IT JUST CAN'T BE!!!! My baby! The on that use to call me Precious! The last eighteen years and eight months and has flown by since Nolan Rhett Scheurn was born! It seems like it was just yesterday he was born! I remember it as if it was yesterday! I remember walking into the hospital, I can see the O.R. we were in for my c-section, I can see all the doctors faces. It truly seems like It was just moments ago!

And now the time has come that Rhett has chose to serve a mission! I remember when Rhett was a baby, knowing he was our last child, that he might choose to serve the Lord for two years when he became 19 years of age. As I have said before with the big age difference between Walker and Rhett, Rhett was raised kind of like an only child.

The years that I was able to spend time with just Rhett when the other kids were at school was special! We definitely had a strong bond. I often thought of the time he would turn 19 and leave for two years and serve a mission. When I would think about it, I often tried to put it out of my mind. The reason why I did was because I knew it would be hard for me to let him go due to the fact how close we are and... HE IS MY BABY!!! Not to mention that it would be just Tom and I home alone, after Rhett left and for all of you that know Tom you know that could be challenging! Love him dearly but...

The time is here!!! Rhett had his last interview with Bishop Porter and Bishop clear it all through church headquarters to recieve and print out his papers! Rhett fill out all of his part of the papers and has sent them back to saltlake. Rhett just had his physical today, TB test and went to have lads drawn! Rhett will have his teeth cleaned and examed next week and what ever needs to be done dental wise will be done the next week!

Rhett has been attending missionary Prep classes and is well on his way to serve the Lord for two years!

We will miss all the football games, the wrestsling tounements, track, his wit, and his handsome face! But as hard as it will be to let him go... I know there are many waiting just for him! I do worry that I have ruined Rhett by being overly protective of him... But it is my prayer that he will rely on the Lord for the strength he will need to serve!

I was talking with Rhetts Young Men President and I was voicing my concerns to him and he told me, Tamy, Rhett might be hard at times to get him out on those super activities, but once he hits the church parking lot and they are trying to load the trucks and trailors, it is Rhett that is doing all the loading and helping the younger boys"! Brother Ray also told me "that Rhett reminded him of the young boys pulling the hamd carts across the frozen river. He said Rhett is so strong and helpful"! Brother Ray told me about some young Deacons on the last super activity that were scared to go down some rather steep rocky trail. Brother Ray said Rhett helped each Deacon down and then went back up again to bring each one of their back packs down for them one by one!

I am thankful that Rhett has made the choice to serve his Heavenly Father and the people where he is called to serve! I know if Rhett will look at him self as his Father in Heaven looks at him, he will be an amazing missionary! I know the Lord is well pleased with Rhett just as his earthly parents are as well!!
Rhett, I LOVE and ADORE you, give your whole self to the Lord! Work HARD! Take every chance you get to loose your self in service and you will be forever eternally happy! We will miss you and you will be a constant prayer in my heart my PRECIOUS boy! I do know you will go where the Lord needs you the most!! Pops and I love you with all of our hearts and we are so very proud of you!!! IT JUST CAN"T BE, MY BABY HAS BEEN CALLED TO SERVE!!!

"The Heater In June"!

The front and back view of the cabin!

"Are you kidding me"! Seriously the heater turned on in June, in AZ!!

This weekend was just what I needed! My SWEET friend Catherine asked me last week if I wanted to go to Pinetop to her cabin for the weekend! I know for those who know me well you are wondering how Catherine talked me in to going, because as everyone knows I am a home body,and.... my most favorite vacation is at home with no kids! Think about it! We love our homes and if we stay home you do not have to pack a suitcase full of clothes, cosmetics. blow dryers, reading material, computer. and more! When you leave your house you even have to remember to bring your phone charger and hope you don't leave where you go!! But... with some smooth talking from Catherine she convinced me to go!

We left Friday afternoon. On our way up the mountain we had to stop and eat at one of my most favorite Mexican food restaurant in... Miami, AZ!! It was DELICIOUS!! The red chili cheese crisp is fantastic! As we got back into the truck we went through a few rainy areas and it was so fun to see and smell the rain on the mountains as we were headed up to the "Chamonix" Catherine named her cabin "The Chamonix" because she has a close friend from France and with all the snow Pinetop had this winter, her friend said the cabin reminded him of an area in the the French Alps that looks out over Mont-Blanc!

We arrived at the cabin about eight in the evening and we unloaded the truck and just as we finished getting everything in it began to rain! WOW, it was coming down pretty hard but I can tell you we opened both doors on either side of the cabin and a few windows. Catherine and I sat down on her over stuffed sectional she on one side and me on the other! We did not even turn the TV on, or even talk to much at this point. We just listened to the rain coming down on the roof, we listened to the breeze through the pine trees and the smell of the pines was incredible! Before long we noticed we were getting a little cold so Catherine grabbed a light blanket for each of us! It was so relaxing, no TV, no kids, no phones ringing, I felt sure that this was better than a full body massage! We began to visit about girly things, kid things and mom things and some very spiritual things as well. Before we knew it, it was one in the morning! So we thought we would head up stairs to go to bed! I was sleeping in the cowboy room so I would not miss Tom! Great idea Catherine!

As we were folding our blankets that we used on the sofa, we realized it was just not cool now but it was COLD!!! As we were going up the stairs we both were giddy with laughter because we were so tired but I also think we were giddy do to the fact of the cold weather! We just kept saying "This is JUNE"! Catherine said to me "I think I should turn the heater on"! I looked at her like she was nuts... WHAT... the heater....but did not complain when she turned the heater on... in June!

We woke up Saturday morning and the heater felt so good but.. I love to feel the cold and to have a big blanket on me! We again snuggled into the sectional and discussed the world problems, and.... solved them, and then we were off to go into town. We went to some fun shops! We bought everything from candles to "Roasted Pineapple Habanero" dip! Yes that is what I said,"Roasted Pineapple Habanero" dip! Catherine poured it on some cream cheese and you use crackers to put it on and it is FANTASTIC!!!! She bought me a jar for a special treat for me to take home! After we shopped we went back to the "Chamonix" discussed and solve world problems again... and then we were off to "Charlie Clarks Steakhouse"! It was a wild and crazy place. We had to walk through the bar to get to the restaurant and I am telling you I thought I was back to my old rodeo days in that place! I was even tempted to have a beer and dance on the table! I finally came to my senses and decided that would not be in my best interest! We had a great dinner except for the clams. Catherine said the "add a clams " at "Taco Bell" were better but I am not sure about that! We went back to the cabin, we were pretty tired and I was missing Tom a little so I was happy to retire to my cowboy room!

On Sunday Catherine had another special treat for me when I woke up, waiting for me was a.... "Mc Choco-Mocho" shake! I think that was what it is called! I had been telling Catherine that I kept seeing this drink in commercials and I never eat at McDonald's, but I said one day I am going to try to stop and try one! We even tried to get one Saturday night, but the machine was closed for the night! I can tell you it was fantastic, but you could only drink about a third of it because it was so rich, but worth it!

Catherine is a sweet, giving, tender, serving person! I do not know how she does ALL that she does! She own a big window covering company, that makes blinds, shutter, verticals, rollers shade screens and more! She is amazing the way she takes care of her family, home, yard, big company and if that is not enough she is ALWAYS remodeling something! She works from the minute she wakes up until the minute she goes to bed!

Catherine has been a wonderful friend! She has made so many meals for our family and every meal she has made for us is YUMMY!!!, She is always there to help me every chance she gets! Even when I maybe screening my calls and don't want to talk to anyone, she will continue to call and leave kind, loving message for me! She has never given up on me! She would do anything for me, and my family! And I would do anything for her as well! Walker moved into his new home on a Friday and as busy as she is she drove all the way out to Queen Creek on Sunday and measured all of Walker;s windows for blinds in between all she had to do that day!

I am very blessed to have Catherine as an example to me! I am blessed to have her as a cherished friend and sister! When I count my blessings I count her twice! Catherine thank you so much for a perfect, fun, relaxing weekend! I am so happy you talked me into going to the "Chamonix"! I love you dearly, and thank you again for ALL you do for me and our family, and everyone else! But... I also want to thank you for... "Turning the Heater on in June" and keeping me warm! I love you "CUTE GIRL"!!!

The Cowboy Room!

Would I Of Said Yes?

In the past week, I have often thought... Would I of said yes, if I knew it would be so hard to say "Good-By"? Since Eric has left we have heard from him everyday. WE MISS HIM!!! We miss his smiles, his funny English, his sayings, his bright eyes, the way he skipped around the house, even though that drove me crazy at times! We miss the willingness Eric always had to help in anyway he could. We missed him at church, we missed him at Sunday dinner, we have missed him at family prayer and I know Tom missed him on Sunday when he went to do his home teaching. But Most of all we have missed his over all joy and happiness that radiated from him! Eric has a SWEET, SPECIAL spirit about him that is hard to describe! Eric truly is a wonderful young man who has touched many lives! He has left many memories with, many that will never be forgotten! I can honestly say, who ever Eric met they loved him ,and they will not ever forget him! The good-by was so difficult! Rhett had planned on going out of town on Thursday so they said their good-bys that morning. It was a long tearful good-by. There were a few friends of Rhett's from the wrestling team that had stayed the night and it too, was a very tearful good-by. On Friday Eric and I spent the day alone. We had a few last minute places where we needed to go to pick a few things up for Eric before he left. We enjoyed the time we had together alone. We went out to lunch and we talked for along time! Again many tears! He told me that he never thought he would become so close to our family! He also said that he would of never thought he could love our family like he loves his own, but... in fact he did! Eric told me he loved me, and that I was his angel! Eric expressed a deep love for Tom! Eric always said "Tom Scheurn is the funniest man in the galexcy,as Eric would say and Walker Scheurn too"! When ever Eric called Tom's, Walker's, Rhett's, Joe's or my name he called us by our full name! It was always RHETT SCHEURN ect. I am happy to say he arrived home in Brazil safely. Eric said his family and friends were at the airport to meet him! Our home seems lonely since Eric has left and not only has Eric left but.... Walker bought a new home and is now moving into it as of this last weekend! Eric kept telling Walker to buy a house in Brazil! Also Rhett is in the process of filling out his paper work for his mission so he will be gone before to long as well! Eric keeps telling me that Rhett is going to Brazil for his mission! I do know that Eric had said he would like to come back and go to school and work! He keeps telling Tom that he is going to work at the dealership and pop popcorn for Tom! We will take him anyway or any time! Eric knows he will forever be welcome in our home. In the letter that Eric left for Tom , he expressed a deep love for Tom. He thanked him for going beyond his duties of an exchange dad! Eric loved and admired Tom! Eric made me promise that he would always be our son for ever! Eric also told me in this letter that"He might be going back to Brazil but he had left a BIG piece of his heart here with me! He also told me how blessed he was to live with our family and he felt sure there was divine help from our Heavenly Father , in him coming to our home! We feel sure this is true! I know I have said this many times but.... There were reasons why we needed Eric in our home! Eric help Rhett allot by always being there for Rhett to talk to and keeping him company at all times! There bond was amazing! There is no doubt that Walker and Joe did not realize how close they would become with Eric either! It was nice that Posey was able to come out from GA, to do Rhett's and Eric's senior announcements. And even though Blake was not around Eric that much I know Blake, Tanya and the kids will miss him as well! It is funny every time the grand kids come over they ask "Where is Eric"! We explain it over and over but they continue to ask! I have already been asked by Eric's coordinator from the program Eric was with, if we would take an other student next year and I quickly said NO"!!! I feel pretty sure about that! But.... the question that still comes to mind is "Would we of ever agreed to have Eric live with us if we new it would be so hard to say good-by"? I can honestly say"YES"!!! "In a heat beat"! I would say "100% YES, as Eric would say"! Eric we LOVE you, and you are PRECIOUS to ALL of us! WE MISS YOU, ALWAYS and FOREVER!!! Yes, Yes, Yes!!!!!